nevertheless, loved/

what bugs me most

2011-02-07T17:45:00.001+08:00

Me

Sakinah Rafiq Tan Hui Ling annoys Sakinah Rafiq Tan Hui Ling.

No, i didnt have a typo not did you read it wrongly. I am irritated by myself. To put it in the most blant way as i possibly can....i am getting on my own nerve because of my incapabilities, my handicapped area; my mind.

The mind is where my insecurities come from. Its the reason why i doubt friends who are near and dear. Its the reason why im comfortable with my body. Its the main reason why i am a pessimist.

I dont believe someone is only as strong and happy as their minds are strong. Thus i am not happy nor strong.

And im sorry toward a near and dear friend; dionne hauri, for making her the victim of my weak mind that made her out to be the bad person when i know she isnt.

Thats the funny thing about my mind. Knowledge and thoughts do not coincide, and then thats where nothing i say/do makes sense....to me. I am just one jumble of mess ib every way possible.

Im sorry dionne.

And maybe there isnt really anything gng on with our friendship but perhaps my mind is just strong enough to make me believe that something is at stake. I can no longer tell real from fantasy.

I can say with all honesty that i believe i am a mental patient misplaced in a secular jc institution.

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Let it fall down

2010-09-18T16:26:00.003+08:00

I'm in the midst of changing my blogskin, then being a person who can't do a thing at a time, I started doing revision from promos. So my profile's not quite done up and blah. Don't judge me, its in only 9 more days!

Tomorrow's supposed to be outing with the YOG mates. Not sure I wna go thou.

+I guess not going to NZ or NYC has its plus points. I may very well carry on saving for a trip to Pembroke some day. Or for another diving trip :) There are just so many possibilities with money!

OK, actually I just wanted to post because the other day, my angmoh cousin was asking me what the big deal was with the word "zomg" and I came across it on urban dictionary. So here it is.
'Till then!

such is life

2010-09-17T21:51:00.003+08:00

I'm upset.

I didn't get to sign up for the NYC trip, but when i do sign up for NZ, I didn't get in :/

all because of my MYE.

sigh

2010-09-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

I finished Chemistry tutorial, there's bio quiz tomorrow and I haven't studied for it.

I don't think there's a need to study for it.

Today I signed up for floorball to play during my school's Interhouse Games.

I sent out an email to Mrs Yeo, my secondary school principal, for an interview for PW.

Talked to Dionne :)

Having YOG gathering on Sunday (tentatively)

Oh, and Afiq is freaked out by the fact that I'm not into the guys I used to be into.

*shrugs*

I noticed my blogs are less colourful nowadays.

Sorry, I'm too tired out from studying and lauhging out loud in school to add more life to this space.

But I promise, to elaborate on the lameness that happens 'round me. Like what I used to do in the past :)

CHAO OUTSIDE

no more games

2010-09-14T22:31:00.004+08:00

I changed my blogskin!

Today I had a session of floorball, and I studies 'till 9pm.

I felt productive today! I could absorb most if the things I did in class today. yay, and night study with atikah was fun!

13 MORE DAYS TO PROMOS.
I just came back from night study! :)
kthxbai!
(dee, you tudy hard too k?)

hari raya

2010-09-11T19:47:00.003+08:00

(one of the many picts taken. others found on my fb!)
Hi,
For those who don't know the true meaning of Hari Raya, it is actually a mark for the month of Syawal, which happens to be the end of the month of Ramadan. By this time, we are supposed to feel so thankful for what we have after the trials we are faced with during the month of Ramadan. Other than hunger and thirst, we have been faced with trials of anger and temptation. And we have this celebration to reflect upon our achievements during that month.

However, it has come to my attention that certain people break their fast with beer and such. Not tryna pin-point anyone, but i think he knows very well who he is, and its just damn sad. Oh well, I'm nobody to be telling him its the wrong thing to do. I believe everybody makes their own decisions, and I don't wish to say its all because his parents taught him that way....but there is a certain point where this is all due to your personal choice. You may say you regret, but you continue, then what is the use of your regret anymore, friend? Do you just want sympathy from people around you? That's down right shameless. All I can do is pray you see the right path A.S.A.P.

As for me, I kinda enjoyed the day of Hari Raya with my cousins.
I got to talk heart-to-heart with my cousin, Emelda <3
My daddy had a fun time laughing about. :)
I am also going to go shopping with my brother soon!
+Alf called me :D

Hope everybody else enjoys the remaining of this season.
I, on the other hand, have to get started on my revision for the upcoming exams in 16 days :(

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-10T00:57:00.004+08:00

Hi one and all.
I cut my hair already, so its about shoulder length right now.
As I'm blogging right now, people are playing with their bunga-api ("fire flower" or fire cracker)
I have a new Baju Kurung, and a whole new attitude toward Hari Raya.
Its not about how much money you get.
Or how it makes you feel.
Its about how you make others feel on this day.
I'm aware many of my peers are dejected especially from this year's Raya, but friends, remember not to let your sullen mood spoil the day of others :)
Try to make it the most enjoyable, if not for you then for the people around you.

Just now I went to Holland V to shop.
It is officially my favourite place to shop at. :)
Tomorrow would be the first day of Raya.
According to proper Malay customs, the family would eat lontong and the traditional delicacies on the morning of this day. However, my family being of mixed race, is not really accustomed to this practice. Instead, our practice is to celebrate the end of the Puasa month with breakfast @ Macs :) Weird, but original. <3

Please forgive me for all the sins I've done unto you.
Whether you're muslim or not, this apology applies to you :)
I hope you guys out there are well in health.
May you find peace in the days that come.

God Bless.

PS: I hope my dear Noruen's fine. <3

300

2010-09-09T12:42:00.002+08:00

I am mad @ Noruen.....kinda.

She hasn't been picking up my calls/replying my messages. and bet its on purpose.

....but I don't really give a damn.

I used to be so caught up in the circle of finding a partner that I forgot the wonders of having time to myself. But all that's changed. I guess the change was because I was sore from my breakup but right now, I'm just enjoying my independent person. I mean sure, guys show interest. Easiest thing to do is just lay them down. No point in playing the you-catch-me-i-act-as-if-im-interested game. Seriously, on twitter...so many of these kids are doing this thing where they complain/rant about guys who are so gaga over them. Like I dno what's with the influx of this. So? Guys go after you. Big whoop. The only reason why you dun see other people posting about it online is because people actually have humility yknow. They are so used to it that they dont have to boast 'bout their "succes rate"

What other reason could there be to boast unless this is your first time in the love game? Honestly, you dun like the dude/whatever...just tell him. Why the heck do you bother "acting nice" by leading him on? I think that's the utmost cruel thing you could do to a guy whether they have good/bad intentions.

Seriously, get a life.

peace.

For some reason, I can't help but panic

2010-09-07T18:47:00.002+08:00

HI!

Tomorrow is the day I go on an outing with the YOG matez :)

Hero!!!!!

....but up till this point, I'm abit undecided on whether or not I should go.

So I gave myself until 10am tomorrow to make a final decision.

Amir said he would go with me cuz he'd be going later anywayz.

I am actually really excited 'bout this.

I don't know what to wear!

I played a good three hours of Sims today.

No study accomplished.

I just wasted one whole day away.

there are 20 more days before the big P! (Promos)

.......I have to focus.

this is another reason why I am undecided :/

oh well.

I'm going off to Sakura soon! Its my aunt's birthday today.

Ciao!

Changing the Game

2010-08-25T20:16:00.004+08:00

Hi!

The Closing Ceremony of the First ever Youth Olympic Games takes place tomorrow.

Sad to know that all this fun we had with other people from other JCs is gonna end.

People like Zeng Woon, Daniel, Chin Pang.

Not to mention the comraderie created between us schoolmates; Atikah, Amir, Ryzal, Mithunn, Irwan, Yelicia, Dennis, Estelle, Kiat Hoon, Li Tong, Priscilla, Sang Hyun, Nigel, Cindy, Clairie and Yun Wei!!!!!

OF COURSE. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, DANIEL NAREN PILLAI! (aka, urine boy!!!!!)

Going to miss the times, but nonetheless, I am not upset by it.

What I am upset of is actually the Promotional Examinations that are up in about 30 days.

:/ So not ready.

I have to start studying, but now everything is a mess. Everything is everywhere it shouldn't be.

I'm supposed to be doing my GP Application Question now, actually......and also math.

Darnit.

Today I had my Chinese Mock Exam.

Screwed is suffice to describe my future state!

Ok, I'mma stop complaining 'bout workload and start doing something about it.

Everybody else who can feel me, JIA YOUUUU!

PS: I AM SO GETTING THAT ATHELETE FROM NORWAY'S AUTOGRAPH!!!!! WOOHOO

Finally back.

2010-08-22T22:08:00.003+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

I'm back! With so much done within the last 2-3 months that I've been away from here?

Quick flashback:

1. my Mid-Years' results sucked.

2. making vast improvement in my school work

3. Dionne's gone back to England.

4. Noruen's opening up to me more

5. My PW is really starting to irk me.

6. Its the fasting month right now.

7. Afiq told hell lot of people about Jelly (formerly Jam)

8. Promotional exams are in 36 days!

9. I was on International TV on 14/08/10 (being the placard holder for Uganda during the YOG Opening Ceremony)

So now that you're up to speed, I'll try to update more on this blog.

Cuz I find it nicer to blog on blogger.

Tumblr's more of a site to share interestingly profound pictures and blah.

Go Team Singapore!

(in reality, I don't even watch any of the games)

2010-06-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of thinking back
Tired of wondering "what if"

Because I'm tired of it all, I'm sorry to say I'm never gonna grow tired of avoiding you.
This may sound childish, but only because you know I won't respond to you. Because you can't have what you want.
Yes, I avoid your facebook requests.
Yes, I blocked and deleted your msn.
.....Only to be sure you don't hurt me.
Only to make it clear that I'm not somebody to be messed around with anymore.

Though, I do miss you oh terribly.

Reason for this inpromptu feeling is that today last year, you were there to wish me our 10th month together. Today would've been our 22nd if you'd have seen how hard I've tried to please.
But maybe the break in December 2009 was a blessing.
If not for it, I wouldn't be here looking at things in a different perspective, appreciating things more for what they are.

Hence, I thank you Fadhir Mansor, for hopefully the last time, for allowing me to break off from the mundane used to be.
Cuz you made me whole by not being my boyfriend anymore :)

ON THE 15TH (2 DAYS FROM NOW) YOU GUYS BETTER KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS!!!!!

2010-06-08T15:29:00.001+08:00

Hi, I update on my tumblr more often these days.
Its more convenient.

http://unstoppable-.tumblr.com

its also in under my affiliates.

start kickin' in.

2010-06-05T07:52:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiii

Holidays've been treating me nicely so far.
Managed to meet up with Dionne yesterday!!!!!
I missed her much, fine, I admit. I did miss her quite a bit.

I managed to go to the BBQ @ Jerm's yesterday also!
Supposed to be for bidding Siman farewell (she's going overseas to study)
Problem: SHE IS ONLY LEAVING SINGAPORE IN OCTOBER!!!!!
....hahah, so it turned out to be more of a class gathering thing.
It was kinda fun to be catching up with the guys again :D

People say Ivan became more buff, but to me....he's just got puffier nipples. hahah.
Wukai is still about the same....eating and eating.
Forever eating infront of me.
Talked to Shawn again since what seems to be centuries ago!
The girlies are about the same.
Maxine has longer hair....prettier :)
Best part: I was told I looked slimmer and like i lost alot of weight :D
hahah, though I think I actually put on weight!!!!

OH WELL.
Amierul, Sarvesh, Pradeep weren't there.
*shrugs*

NEXT THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO: UNIVERSAL STUDIOS AND 11TH JUNE.
Other than that, I'd probably be studying all the way *sigh*

We were talking 'bout clubbing, and I may be only noob in the group that I'm going with. I've never clubbed! Don't expect me to know how to accept a grind aite. LOL.
I can imagine myself standing like a stiff dick. Lol then some guy workin' his stuff. Too bad for the guy who chooses to dance w me aite. I'd be the one dancing inappropriately.
THOUGH!!!!
I'm pretty undecided on whether to go.
I mean I was pretty sure I wanted to go with Dionne but now like when I think about it, would it be worth it????

....imma go get ready for CIP at 313@Somerset NOW.
Bye!

B

2010-06-03T20:08:00.002+08:00

Gemini Strength Keywords:
- Energetic
- Clever
- Imaginative
- Witty
- Adaptable

Gemini Weakness Keywords:
- Superficial
- Impulsive
- Restless
- Devious
- Indecisive

Gemini and Independence:
Gemini are extremely independent. They will not be pinned down by anyone or any rules. They need to experience the world on their own. Change and freedom are extremely important to Gemini, they will never let anyone dictate them, they are extremely independent and freedom is essential to their mental well being.

Gemini and Friendship:
Gemini make very interesting and exciting friends. They like to leave their mark on everyone they meet. They are very flighty and will disappear for a long time as they meet new friends and explore new places. But when they come back, they will have new thoughts, opinions and interesting things to share and ideas to teach. Life is very interesting and fun with a Gemini friend. If you need any advice, Gemini is the one to ask. They are masters of communication and they can help you get what you need by helping you with persuasion and enthusiasm, and they give good advice too. Do not however, bog a Gemini down with all of your emotional problems, they are not want to deal with it because it depresses them and steps on their freedom if you need too much long term help, support and follow up. A Gemini friend can fill you in with the latest gossip and if you love conversation, the Gemini delivers! They are very generous with their friends, they will spend lots of time with you and share everything with you. Even though Gemini is a social butterfly, they always need time for themselves and that should be respected.

Gemini and Business:
Gemini tends to disperse their energy on different tasks and not just focus on one thing thus leaving a trail of unfinished projects in their wake. If they were to focus their energy in one place, their cleverness and intelligence would allow them to complete their project with success and creativity. Gemini makes an excellent manager, they can motivate a team with their enthusiasm and vitality. They also make excellent salespeople because their ease of communication allows them to be clever and make a comeback to anything a person says. They can persuade and manipulate very well. They can easily justify any move they make and explain any action.

Gemini Temperament:
Gemini have the ability to react instantly to situations, and as a result, they have a very nervous temperament. They can be compared to a wound up spring as they attempt to absorb everything they can about their surroundings at once. The fact that they enjoy various situations and people add to their nervousness and that means they are almost constantly wound up. However, if they experience boredom and have nothing to survey, they get the same emotions, the need for excitement and variety. This is the Gemini duality, constantly conflicting emotions in one spontaneous, excitable package.

Gemini Deep Inside:
One downfall of Gemini is their superficiality. Instead of looking deep into a person's real qualities, Gemini will judge a person by the way they treat them. This can lead Gemini to have wrong impressions of people and can cause problems ion relationships. Gemini's can have feeling of discouragement and moodiness although they never allow this to be seen by anyone but heir closest friends or family. Gemini usually want everyone to think that they are always happy and doing wonderfully and stress never affects them.

Gemini in a Nutshell:
Gemini people are many sided, quick both in the mind and physically. They are brimming with energy and vitality, they are clever with words. They are intelligent and very adaptable to every situation and every person. Gemini are curious and always want to know what's going on in the world around them. They are not one to sit back and watch the world go by, they want to be involved. This can sometimes make Gemini nosy, they do not mind their own business! This is because they really enjoy communicating, more so then most other astrology signs, they are the ultimate social butterfly. Gemini can talk and talk, but they have interesting things to say, their talk is not mindless babble. They have interesting opinions and thoughts on things and are not afraid to speak their mind. They are always in the know and are the one to see for the latest juicy gossip. Lacking perseverance, Gemini easily goes off topic to explore another thought or idea. Gemini are superficial, they will form opinions on matter without diving into them and exploring them fully. This can lead them into thinking they know everything, which they usually do but their mind is too busy to be concerned with fine details. Routine and boredom are Gemini's biggest fears. Gemini would rather be naive then know the depressing truth, they do not want anything putting a damper on their freedom or positive energy.

Gemini Love, Sex and Relationships
What it's like to date a Gemini Woman:
The Gemini woman is truly enchanting. However, dating her might feel more like a friendship then a real relationship due to her casual nature. This is not necessarily a disadvantage, for the casual man who shy's away from overly romantic emotions, she is the perfect woman. Since she is the astrology sign of the duality, she offers quite the challenge. One one hand, she needs to be nurtured, loved and catered to and on the other hand, she needs stimulation and novelty. She is very demanding and if you do not provide what she wants, she will be off onto the next adventure pretty quickly. To keep her interested is a challenge, not completely impossible so she is the perfect woman for the man who likes stimulation and a challenge. She needs a partner with a quick mind, she tends to poke and prod at the emotions and the minds of those who are mentally slower then her, make sure you can keep up to her wit or you will briskly be left behind. She is prone to keeping men on a string, not completely heartlessly, she is evaluating if the man is worth her attention and her time she has no time to waste with a dull man. Once you have her approval, she can easily become jealous. The reason for her is jealousy is that if she is going to open up to a man, when she rarely completely opens up to anyone, she does not want to risk her being deceived or hurt. If you are with a Gemini woman and she becomes jealous, you are on the right track to true love! Gemini women are so exciting that they are worth the effort, you will remember her forever!

How To Attract Gemini:
Love to talk, that is the first rule about impressing a Gemini. Be knowledgeable about that you talk about too because Gemini are intelligent and have lots of knowledge about many things. If you are an expert on a certain topic, teach them about it, you will impress them because this know-it-all sign is does not usually know fine details about a lot of things, they are too busy to bother to learn. Speak your mind, engage them in a friendly debate but never be too conservative, they find this dull. Be honest and loyal to a Gemini, once they have had their trust broken they usually will never get it back again. Gemini are easy to date, they will do any activity anywhere. Just have fun, like you would with a friends because that's what Gemini are, a great friend.

Gemini Erogenous Zone:
Gemini's hot spots are the hands and arms. These are very sensitive regions and are very receptive a massage and a gentle touch or stroke. This also calms the high-strung Gemini and relaxes them, setting the mood for passion. Gemini's usually love their finger being sucked or nibbled, a great integration into foreplay that will heighten the mood. Gemini women love it when a man grabs their hand and kisses it, like a princess.

Sex With Gemini:
Gemini loves to experiment and sex with a Gemini is full of novelty and excitement, trying anything and everything nearly anywhere. Gemini is not for the faint of heart or the shy and secretive lovers

interesting? .....i believe it is.
I find it funny to nod at things that are like extraordinarily true in these kinda horoscope thingies.
*shrugs*

nowadays, I have many things to blog....but just can't find the will to blog it all out.
oh well.
xoxo

2010-06-02T13:08:00.003+08:00

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2010-05-31T12:11:00.001+08:00

You remain as an acquaintence, even after fathering for 17
years.

I dreamt I was pretty, confident, and accepted.
It was afterall, just a dream.

♥

it sucks being me...most of the time.

2010-05-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

man, I look so cute, don't i. (bahahhaa)

Yo! so my diving trip wasn't great. Many reasons.

fainted on the first day (not a great experience for someone getting ready to dive!)
sucky accomodation
nothing much to capture on my cam
sucky souveneirs (didn't get to buy any for Luqman/Noruen!)
diving sites sucked much
almost got molested
Was demoralised like alot......

Well!
Dionne's coming tomorrow.
and I have the whole June Holiday planned. (most of it, anyhow)
All I need to do this whole week: FINISH HOMEWORK
Rest of the holidays = DIONNE, DIONNE, DIONNE, DIONNEEEEEE!

Bye~

Why the heck did I lead him to her?!

2010-05-27T20:57:00.004+08:00

hihi! note the arrows pointing in different directions?! so misleading! HAHA
Yes, that is a phone on a real navy vessel!
credits to Luqman for taking the pict for me!

Speaking of boats, I'm gonna be on one the whole of the weekend!
ALWAYS NICE TO MARK THE HOLIDAYS WITH A DIVING TRIP!

PS: did something ytd online.......
....not proud, at all.
In fact, it made me emo this morning.

Oh yeah, MYE started.
GP paper down. Literature paper in exactly 4 weeks' time!
Study during the holidays!!!!

I will add a temporary bar at the side >>>>>
to note my June go-abouts.
If ya guys interested to include me in social gatheringz,.....LEMME KNOWWWW.

Dionne gonna land here soooooooooooooooooooooon.
WEEEE

I'm gonna be gone by tomorrow early in the morn. so this is my last post for now xD
ME HEARTZ THE CUTE PETAL~

MYE tomorrow.

2010-05-26T20:31:00.003+08:00

DAMN MAZZUM

Hello!
That right there is the favourite phrase of the annoying fatty in my class.
I prefer to refer him as the annoying lemon (since he insists he's yellow -.- He apparently is not racist, but colourist)
....though he argues that his head is in fact in the shape of a mango (totally out of point!!! he's so round. I don't remember mangoes being round!!!!)
+You wouldn't wna know what his phrase means.

I'm going away on my diving trip in 2 days' time!
I'm apparently staying on Dionne's uncle's resort.
to Dionne: YOUR UNCLE CALLED MY MUM, AND WHEN MY MUM ASKED IF YOU WERE HIS NIECE HE JUST DENIED HE KNEW OF ANY DIONNE HAURI. LOL!!!!
bhahahaha, uncle doesn't know his niece :P

Currently listening to some random Justin Bieber song on my iTunes.
....trying to pad up my EOM for submission tomorrow. (its some component in my project work)
still have to read up last minute for my GP exam tomorrow. Regretting that I have been neglecting my GP material!!!!!!!!

Today there was some disciplinary briefing given by Mrs Tan, my principal. Well, I wouldn't know much about it since I didn't have to attend it (shocker, really). Instead, SunYoung and Noruen had to :P BAHAHAHAHA. Jam also had to attend. Luq also. Not R. ^^ I tend to the bad boyz heh? Who can blame me. Even Alexandra Burke agrees with me!
In case you dno, Alexandra Burke's the singer.

Tomorrow might be going to Bugis with Noruen after school!
To exchange my halfsuit!!!!! :D
I WILL MAKE HER TAKE PICTURES WITH ME.

Dionne's gna be back by next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
......not that I miss her any more than I did few weeks ago....
meaning to say....I STILL DON'T MISS HER ^^

BYEZ♥

SUNDAY IS TODAY

2010-05-23T21:59:00.002+08:00

Went out to Navy Open House with Luq (!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :]
- quite a few pictures!
- I won him in the shooting game (21-10)
- taught him Math, (he thinks I can tutor him, hahah!)

i'll try t get the picts up on fb
for now, i'm to tired to even update properly.
Let's just say....i was pretty upset this morning.

xoxo

Commutership

2010-05-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

Hi.

I don't know if its just me or what, but I seem to think about the most unthinkable things on the bus!!!!! O_O
Like today I shought of how the word shit came about in the first place.
You know how inventions get their quirkiest of names from their imaginative inventors. Ones like "oven" or "fridge". :)
Maybe they don't sound so quirky now that we have things like the "megatron X2950Z!" (don't even know when letters were mixed with numbers....but anyway!), but to people some 1000 years ago, these names were like....what iron man is to us now!

BUT ever wondered how shit came about? No?

Well I imagined the inventor of the word (let's call him....Tony) to be in the house one day, waiting for his brother/uncle/frog/cat to be done with whatever business he had in the loo.

Tony: yo, bro/uncle/frog/cat, what thou do eth? (isn't that how old English people spoke?)
Tony's bro/uncle/frog/cat: Ye be keeping thou mouth shut... eth! *pants loudly*
Tony: WHAT? SHIT? what ye be talking 'bout?
Tony's bro/uncle/frog/cat: Argh! Thy am makin' ye olde caketh! (i know it sound pirateish, but whatever!)
Tony thinks: shit = makin' we olde caketh? interesting---eth!

BAHAHAH.
ANd that's how I entertain in my daily buss trips!
THE END!

It won't stop for you

2010-05-20T21:26:00.005+08:00

Hi, its been amazingly 5 months seen I last seen that ex-boyfr of mine, and he still isn't outta my head. Like, now he's just a lingering memory that no longer does much harm to my emotions, but...I don't know how to explain this certain tug at my soul.
*shrugs*

School's been kind of a drag because of the discouragement I get from my bad grades.

Minah is so nice as to compliment on my looks.
Saying I'm pretty and blah, bringing up what her friends said bout my looks.
(doubt its true)
....but still, her effort to make switch me to "un-emo" mode was nonetheless appreciated <: Jam smiled at me today :D I dreamt me and Dionne were Jedi knights in Tarzan's jungle filled with Space Jam characters. TODAY IS KHAIRUL'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY 17TH, MR LOVE-TO-MAKE-STORIES-UP.
hahah, a beloved classmate of mine I'd never replace. He brings much joy to the atmosphere.
....and I want his phone!!!!!

its only 11 days before Dionne lands back in Asia!!!
Monkeying!
its also 11 days before I switch my ipod to MIKA mode. Eh, J-ning? ;)

I 'lepak' (his word....hehe!) with minah just now @ the vegetarian thingy place while waiting for a fresh batch of french loaf to be baked (had to get it for my mommy) then yeaaaah, chitchat nonsense lo. Minah so the emo sia. Utensils also can make her mind so convoluted! ala, Utensils useful mah, what is there not to like about them? More in particular....the utensil used to poke stuff; the fork ;)

oh yeah, I attended the pay respects session @ Parliament House to Goh Keng Swee who has passed. We have t be thankful to him for all he's done for today!
@this event, I learnt how to pay respects to a VIP also.
After paying respects, I so the emo. Sigh, seeing a dead body does wonders to my mood.

OH, THIS SUNDAY WHO WANTS TO ACCOMPANY ME TO NAVY OPEN HOUSE?!?!?!
xoxo

gereks

2010-05-18T12:29:00.003+08:00

Sup, people!
I'm finally backkkk.
At this time, I'm supposed to be in MT class in school. But nooooo, I'm at home! :D

Suffered from dizzy spells during bio, and felt nausea.
Omg, I really had the "ohno, im pregnant" thought. BAHAHAH, wth -.-
.....so I got sent home!

Earlier this morning, L sat with me. YAY! :)
-----best part of the day eva!

Oh yeah, I think Noruen's crush likes her back!!!!!
She hasn't come to school so far. (ytd and tday she was absent)
Yesterday it just so happens that he was near my class the whole way!
and I think he recognises me as the-loud-girl-always-with-the-girl-who-stalks me (bahaha!), so he gave me the "eh, why aint my stalker with ya" kinda look. So i gave him the "whats it to ya" look. Note that maybe his look didn't mean what I thought it meant, but I got really defensive and gave him an intimidating look! oh yeaaaaah, that's how I roll! :)
I bet if we were in a western movie, I'd be the cool sheriff with a golden badge! :O
And he'd be the bandit acting all cool on his....3-legged horse (i just needed him to be at a disadvantage in my imagination!)

+++++++Camping with dee?!?!?!?! :D
CANNOT WAIT.

No need for wavehouse/blah. Camping da bomb!
Universal studios!
TGIF's!
B&J's @ Dempsey's!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1ST JUNE, COME QUICK!

hugs/kisses <3

282

2010-05-16T11:58:00.002+08:00

HURLOWZ.

I opened this post a long time ago....
I swear I had something to post about....but i forogt.
I WILL BE BACK WITH A TOPIC TO POST!

xoxo!

2010-05-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

Hi,

Hotmail is getting on my nerves. Keep having technical faults -.- MAKE IT HARDER FOR ME TO ACCESS MY URGENT EMAIL YOU KNOW.
.....so much for improved speed and storage space, pfft.

I am a recent frequent user of twitter. My motives of doing so, I shan't say.
However, from the young girls that I follow, they use twitter for wrong reasons;
1) complain about people they're talking to online
2) bad mouth their parents
3) let the world know they're emotionally unstable
4) to use 'fuck' openly (so unappealing)
5) flaunt their suicidal-potential sayings which eventually amount to nothing.

Apart from these confused teen girls, there are the funny and cute teen guys I follow who use twitter for just......about anything;
1) complaining about the weather
2) reporting in on some chio bu they just spotted
3) homework
4) ......more homework and their feelings that follow
5) CCA
6) replying to friends' tweets all day long!

Interesting to compare these people.
Oh, if you wanna peep in on my tweets, I'm KinahT.
I plainly use it to spy on people's thoughts in hope that one day I may become psychic as twitter slowly dowloads into my brain permanently! hahah.

1 other I dun get is girls who have the obvious makings of innocent-girl-of-the-century...wanting to dress up all.....sleazy. Not saying people who dress up sleazy are not girl-innocent....but then it implies something of the sexual end, no? So why do you do it? To tease? what is there to tease? Then there are just those annoying girls who feed off human chastisement then regurgitate it as self-pomelment.....you insist that people call you ugly by denying their compliments of you, then you go all emo. wtf?

Movies I wanna watch, homework, project, relaxation.
how to fit all in 1 weekend?

JANG

2010-05-13T20:57:00.003+08:00

난 배 안 고파요 (Na peh-anggu-pah!)

H-E-L-L-O....
that phrase up there's in korean! :D
You'd never guess what it meaaaaans.
try and beat that, Miss Espanol AKA Jianing!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY NEWLY 17-YEAROLD GLENYS!!!!!!!!
hopefully B&J's next week.

nothing much to blog about today 'cept that I annoyed Noruen and Afiq a hell lot.
....not sure how i did it, considering i'm so un-annoying <:

CHUL ZHA!
(sleep well)
XOXO

BMTC!!!!

2010-05-12T19:02:00.004+08:00

Heyhey click here to see the vid clip about some guy hitting a gal.
Like c'mmon? Seriously or what dude?
According to my bro, he's gay (?????), BUT STILL, you don't go hitting someone just cuz she paotoh you to the teacher!!!!!!!!!
Somemore the victim didn't hit back leh, then you take advantage of the moment -.-
Girls if hit back.....confirm diezzzzzzcxs

ANYWAY
Today went to Basic Military Training Camp (BMTC) @ Pulau Tekong.
Awesome to the maxxxxx, I got to shoot rounds on the rifle thingamajig.
Ok admittedly I did something stupid.
BUT I'm too lazy to describe it here :)

and did you guys know Taekwondo was a Korean form of martial arts?!!??!?!
I thought it was Chinese or something!
I sounded so bimbo in my conversation with Sun Young (my Korean classmate) :(
Here's how it went:

Walking past a group of guys doing their military fitness thing, looked like doing karate
Me: eh! they're doing kara-teh! (the way spongebob says it) *karate chops on Noruen*
ChawChit (myanmese classmate): Noooo, more like taekwondo!
Me: Aiya, same thing la, both Chinese martial arts........SunYoung, are there Korean martial arts? (Noruen starts laughing out loud)
SunYoung: Taekwondo la! (laughs at me)
Noruen: MINAH, SERIOUSLY SOUNDED BIMBOTIC RIGHT THERE MAN!

How the heck was I supposed to know!? You gotta admit Taekwondo sounds chinese right!?
And it only proves my hypothesis to be right when I ask Khairunissa what form of martial arts she thought it was, and she said something Chinese!!!!
Worse still, when i told her it was Korean, she was like "yalah. Chinese la"
HAHAHA, THEN SUNYOUNG TURNED AROUND.
EPIC LOOK ON HER FACE, THEN KHAIRUNISSA WAS LIKE "OMGOMG, SORRY!"

Here's the pict I drew for relfections on the BMTC trip!
Of course it looks kiddish so I handed it in IN NORUEN'S NAME. bahahahahaha
I am evil.

XOXO!

L

2010-05-12T00:07:00.003+08:00

Ever wondered how words were made?
Well I spent a good whole 3 hours in the Polyclinic this morning, while waiting in queue, thinking bout this cosmic feel of who the heck came up with words like 'retarded' and 'slimey', like what did they base it on?! Sounds? Basic Mathematic Altherithms? Some convoluted equation on word-making-for-dummies? Or were they just random words?
.....haha

Tomorrow I will only have 45 minutes of class! WOOHOO.
Thanks to the trip to BMTC :B
Only selected classes get to go.
I wonder how they select these classes also.
I pictured in my mind that my Principal was blindfolded, pointing at random classes placed in fron of her....not that extreme.

Whereas Arshad, being the wonderful boy he is, said she was blindfolded with daggers in her hand. She would ask the form teachers of the classes to stand infront of her. Which ever teacher gets stabbed, the class get to go BMTC.
Haha! SUPER LOL.

Today my class also went to the MOE CCA branch near NUS campus to watch the Rugby game!
So exhilirating. Its better than watching soccer.
YES LEONG JIANING, BETTER THAN WATCHING SOCCER.
I saw Farhan in his tights. LOL smexy ttm!
Thou his ass did look bigger in the white shorts......but still!! ^^

Now people are asleep while I'm awake. Why?
Cuz I came home to eat, and then immediately slept on the floor after eating (total babi behaviour)
Then woke up at 10.30++.
All my friends were worried, wondering why I not online -.-
AS IF I CANNOT STAY AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER LIKE THAT. Assholes, hahah.

Have to get going on my GPP and lit homework.
Note that I didn't say anything 'bout homework in this post? ;)
PROUD OF MYSELF!
xoxo

dazed

2010-05-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

I am having a really bimbotic conversation with Luqman.
Can dieeeeeeeeeeeee.
LUQ, 'BORNED' DOES NOT EXIST, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU WANT IT TO!!!!

I want to skip on school tomorrow!
I need the mid-week break!
I don't care if I have to do 2.4km alone on Thursday!

...................................he is out of reach, so why do i bother?
i'll just wait to be claimed.
....................................then again, that'll take forever.
giving up!

xoxo
(dionne, come back quick! and no, i still don't miss you)
(Cassie Lin Hui Fang, stay out of my twitter or I will cut you into pieces then stitch you back with needle and thread then tear you apart again just because I can)

Losing love I thought I'd lost

2010-05-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

Hi, I feel like a loser tonight.

Camping on fb to see what he recently 'liked', waiting on my twitter dashboard to change to see if he has something quirky that I may reply to.
Honestly got to stop this.
Obviously he's no interest in me.
Which guy in the right mind would, right?

Today I treat my mum to mother's day.
And treating my mom just comes with the whole package; my 2 annoyingly extra brothers.
was a treat of dinner to BBQ Chicken Restaurant.
$80 down the drain.
Wallet pain.....but s'okay. Its the smiles that count.

Didn't smile much today, not much of a reason to smile anyways.

Tomorrow's yet another week of school.
The only proud accomplishment today = Thermochem tutorial.
Yeah, just homework right? why so excited? ....I also don't know.

Afiq says he'll hit me on the head with something tomrrow if I don't cheer up.

man this really isn't me!
+I like studying al over again.
Exams coming.
Navy Open-house coming up! (I'm so going)
Any taggers? Just tell me.

xoxo

immense

2010-05-08T11:05:00.002+08:00

Today: Happy Mother's Day!
Yesterday: Happy Birthday, baba!

Hi to all you mothers out there,
Please know that whatever children you may have out there; short, tall, thin, fat, rowdy, timid, rebellious, filial -- that they love you. Maybe not right now, but somewhere in the past they have or in the future they will come to love you very much. Please know how much you mean to them, know your very existence accounts for their being......then again, if they are not what you expect them to be.....we all know you've tried your hardest.
And this is the day where you throw all them kids off and have the time of your life! <:

HI TO THE NON-MOTHERS.
I wanna watch Iron Man 2, badly! :(

F, have to go for the Pioneer Panorama soon -.-

Kbye.

Sombre,

2010-05-07T20:19:00.002+08:00

hi.

I am discouraged by alot of things.

Today during literature class, I found out how bad my English has gotten. In a sense that....I didn't know the definitions of certain words mentioned. :( What is wrong with me? I've been feeling rather clueless this past week. Funny that in this week I've been more alert in class even with my lack of sleep and blah.

Yesterday I finally managed to recoup my sleep loss!

I honestly hate chemistry. All the answers given in the bloody tutorial do not agree with my answers. Its either the answer key's wrong, or its me :P VERY CONFIDENT THERE'S FAULT IN THE ANSWER KEY! ^^

Today I was particularly reminded of Dionne! Man, I really don't miss her nowwww! :}
Dee, you remember my dream about you running in the hall during O levels??!?!?! BAHAHAHA.
Epic moment!

My fringe's been getting on my nerve lately.
Curling at the end....making my hair fly up in my mugshot for the school profile!!!!!
Ugh, unglam ttm!!!!!
Then hackers like Wang JianHan get to see my unglam photo then laughs at it -.- me no likey
Solution = BANGZ.
I know I've been saying I would get the bangs.
Only reason why I haven't done so because I didn't wna look like a kid and be a starring stock.
Right now, I don't care anymore! ^^

In the library today, I annoyed Afiq, Sun Young and Noruen. <:
Feel so accomplished! bahahah.
NORUEN! FUZZY LUMPKINS!

Exam period coming.

NO MORE PI ANYMORE! (wooohooohooo)
but then still have GPP, WR, etc.......sian dao.
Mr Chang liked my idea! <;
Poor him was upset during this morning's lesson because of some feedback he got from the HOD.
We all know who ever provided that info was just a plain arse who never paid attention to Mr C's word.
Mr C is a good teacher k!

OH ON THE WAY OUT OF SCHOOL, A TEACHER FARTED REALLY AND I MEAN REALLY LOUDLY IN THE CARPARK.
I HEARD IT ALRIGHT, THEN I TURNED BACK TO FIND HER SWINGING HER HEAD BACK TO CHECK IF ANYONE HEARD.
Too bad for her, Sakinah was there ;P
Bahahahah, I laughed all the way to the security post.
Security man: "wah, you happy uh. From there (points at school entrance) kikikaka until here. Must be because its Friday right?"
Me: "hahahah, (wipes tear from eye) sure uncle, sure. who won't be happy?"
I'm not mean as to spread about the teacher's fart luh! hehe.

Tomorrow I'm taking part in the Interhouse Captain's Ball Competition! xD
Then in the afternoon would be busy doing the Pioneer Panorama. This calls my camera for duty!!!!!!!!!!!!
....then have Math Tuition. (sigh)

ok, gta finish the heaps of homework before its too late!
Guten byebye!

JAM

2010-05-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

HI.

Curse this infatuation that I have that may never be fulfilled.

Going through my last bits of P.I.

I don't know if I should be proud about it but I went through a whole day of school without food.

I don't know why I'm writing like this.

I feel really down because......sigh.

Though happiest part of the day, got to sit next to Mr. BK.

signing out.

#273

2010-05-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

Saaaaap, homezzz.
(hahah, I think i just sounded cool in that greeting! just add in shades, man, im ready to go. HAHA WTC)

Probably thinking: Sakinah up at this moment in time? tsktsk

I slept @ 6+++pm, woke up at 9+++++
Dragged myself to my parent's bedroom (for aircon, the one in my room broke down for some sick reason) to sleep
and here i am, awake, all showered and restless, unable to sleep cuz there's a pain in my head that may be caused by a cockroach in my brain. Aaaaaah! *runs around in circles*

ANYWAY!
Tomorrow (or today) I have to go for the internal YOG selection thingy :(
I no friend leeeeeh, all the other people have people from their class and their friends. whereas me.....loner kiaz. Wlao. Sadded ttm.

I have been skipping a hell lotta meals, unknowingly.
I only remember when I start having gastric pangs.
hahaha, then my whole "oh no, im pregnant!" charade begins. and I know Noruen just loves all my unborn babies ^^
then when the pangs are gone, I just go "oh, false alarm, i just miscarriaged :)"

And was talking to Dionne on fb about the YOG thing and then I was reminded of the fateful day where a bee came to attack my sexy legs! (yes they are Dionne, and you know it! ^^)
I did the stupid dance to dodge the BIG BLACK BEE with my mighty squeal: "AAAAAAAH, GETAWAY GETAWAY GETAWAYYYYY!!!!! Noruen!!!! Save meeeeee"
Hahah, the look on minah's face damn epic.
But then I was jumping for my life, who would've known there was a huge crowd including my crushes....all at site smiling and laughing at me :(
STUPID BEE.
And Dee says the big black ones are harmless!??!!??!?!
They're the fattest leh!
(and JNing, if you're reading this.....DON'T LAUGH)

Oh yes! My mafia wars on fb....I'm now a level 35 mafia leader. WOOOH.
*victory dance*
So maybe its an easy game and Afiq managed to level to 60+ ina flat week and I took like 3 months to get to 30+, BUT THATS NOT THE POINT.
Point is.....right now, I rock at the game more than before.
Go Kinah, go Kinah, its your birthday, its your birthday.

SPEAKING OF BIRTHDAY:
EVELIBODY PLEASE BE REMINDED 15 JUNE IS A SPECIAL DAY.
*cough cough* ^^

PS: THE CHINESE ROBIN WOULD BE LANDING IN 25 DAYS. I REPEAT, CHINESE ROBIN LANDING IN 25 DAYS! (Chinese Robin = Dee, cuz robins are English birds, aren't they?!)
xoxo

You won't affect me

2010-05-03T20:23:00.002+08:00

Hi.

I don't like ________

and tomorrow's a long school day.
so guten byebye.
xoxo

On the contrary

2010-05-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

Hello nuggets!

Yesterday I stayed for 5 long hours at the tuition centre. Yes, like hardcore studying there T_T
I was so proud of myself then I decided that today would be the day I laid back! :)

Today I gave Afiq his birthday treat; Swensens! ^^
I know youngsters give friends birthday bashes, but I find that so lame. Lacking of creativity. and hey, food always tops anything. Especially when its something expensive that you don't have to pay for. So my present was sorta acceptable!

After Swenens, Afiq, Jingda and I met my bro to go lan @ West Bowl.
3 hours of L4D2, total siokness.
It would've been prolonged if my mum hadn't wanted to meet me and Nadhir for dinner.

Jingda and Afiq are really hilarious to be with. :)

And recently it has come to my attention that my Historical Knowledge is very poor. So I must do alot of reading. My geographical knowledge is just as good as my history, sigh.

Oh yeah, my mum just now brought up the subject about a certain boy. Honestly, that guy weird eh. I never really talked to him since last year because of.....our failed relationship. Then suddenlyI heard he reads my blog and then has an issue with me contacting his friend, who is my friend in the first place. That's not the end of the story eh. On facebook, he had some problem with me vouching for his friend to join Dragon Boating. You know what I feel about that? that he only has soccer as a link to his friends....which is really pathetic. Then he go tell one of his galfriend that me and him has a problem!? more like he has some sick problem with me luh. I have nothing against him. He is making a castle out of air! Retarded if you ask me. Then the way he talk, the issues he bring up....damn immature. Please luh, grow out of your bloody shell. You think you seem cool? Consuming such body-harming stuff? well, its very ____. YES, IT IS. Make my blood boil only. I wanted to keep him as a friend eh. then suddenly he became mentally retarded by assuming such inexistant problems! Crazy. So I blocked him off everything. Yes, if you're reading this now, I BLOCKED YOU. But i guess some people never change. Maybe people like him feel that are aalready too good. HA.

Ok, that's my rant I've been keeping.
So nice to let out.
PS: MY TWITTER = HAPPENINGS IN MY LIFE.
If you don't know me to this very day, don't bother assuming that everything you used to know about me has resumed to-date. Things changed, and if you haven't....that's your problem, don't make it mine. Don't assume you matter to me in anyway then go "terrasa-ing" that its all about you just because you used to be the most important thing to me.

Yes, being important once is one thing....being a disappointment at the end of it all just is a stubborn stain in my head that will never rub off, so don't bother trying to seem better and such.

SAKINAH IS REALLY GOING TO SPOIL FREDO AT THE RATE SHE IS BANGING ON THE KEYBOARD NOW.
SO BYE!

Enough procrastinating

2010-05-01T07:59:00.003+08:00

First of all:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, AFIQ D!
my pal's a labour day baby, maybe it explains his forever 'relax' personality, hahah.

Hi!
So today I plan for it to be the day I get over my PI once and for all!
Because this coming Thursday is the deadline for submission.
Worst of all: I may be attempting suicide by switching to Alternatives without any supervision from my ST.
(I know Mr Chang would kill me if he knew I did sucha stunt!)

Today I also have tuition at Bishan.
After 4 long weeks of not going, I don't know if i'm on par with the students at all anymore. Luckily, they're going through something I've already gone through; Summation! Woohooo.

Dionne is coming back in 29 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ohno, my exams are coming.
Thank goodnesss I'm finally out of the December Holidays mood (:
Then again, June is already coming -.-
I tell you, I have the worst of timings in my brain. Sometimes I think: what's going on up there?

OK I'm off to do research.
I shall go to the library and pester the librarians on how to find statistics and stuff for my project.
Weeeeeeeeee!
xoxo

tired

2010-04-30T17:35:00.001+08:00

emotionally, physically, spiritually drained.
what more do you want from me?

My exboyfriend is not my friend

2010-04-29T18:06:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Yes I mean what I mean in my title.
Honestly, I felt that yesterday he was being sucha..................no word can describe how I feel unless expressed with profanity. and since I refrain from such foul language nowadays, its just easier to flush him out of my system.

Can't believe I used to dream about him, yuck.

Anyway!!!!!!!!!!!!
I finally returned to school today. Mighty lethargic, and i had that "i'm so tired that I have to keep my mouth open slightly with my eyes a little droopier than usual" look. Yeaaaah, that's how I roll, bebeh.

Now that I'm back in school, I don't miss Noruen all over again!

I have a mighty hell lotsa tests to sit for. Gosh, they just had to sit for the tests on the days that I called in sick, didn't they?!
+++today my PE teacher wuz sick. So Mr Cute filled her in.
Though, nobody could ever top Mr Fan KM! Best PE teacher since primary school, and still is :)
Too bad he's in UWC now.

I passed my Chemistry test. yay?
Tomorrow I may have to sit for my Cheena test. (sigh)
NAPFA IS NEXT WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
I hope my run is <16 mins :(
I don't wanna have to retake. Ok this weekend = RUN RUN RUN RUN RUNNNN.

K now me go study.
Bye!

2nd day of no school!!!!!

2010-04-28T12:19:00.002+08:00

Hi, its been 2 days since I've seen Afiq/Noruen.
Miss them already.
and I hope dear Afiq's not too down in the dumps :(
This Saturday's his birthday!!!!!!
I'm gonna do something even if he doesn't want it.

OK you can't blame me for eluding myself with the above cartoons the whole of yesterday! I mean I did my homework, and I was bored @ the end of the day!

So practically yesternight was a whole marathon of everything nonsense from cartoons to youtube vids to things on facebook to Dionne.
All annoyance has to end with Dionne for the cycle to be complete! ^^

Currently printing my Biology notes and whatever not.
I can't believe I even bothered to contemplate on whether to go to school.
Because of all the extra time on hand, I might actually be able to accomplish the Bio planning questions today! Insya'allah.

Honestly, printing my own notes really aggrevates me.....having to wait and to reprint because of some errors/blah.
+its so eco-unfriendly!
Why not just allow us students who have laptops to bring it to school to view our notes that're on the portal anyway!??!!??!?!
Seriously, it annoys me at how much paper I'm using. Talk about being part of eco-club! Go eco! *throws arms in the air* LOL, wtheck.

OK, I'm off to do Bio.
PS: DIONNE, I WILL STRIVE TO CLEARING MY ROOM FOR YOUUUUU.
xoxo

The nightmare

2010-04-27T16:16:00.002+08:00

Hi.

This morning I woke up from a surgery table.
It was covered in my blood.
I was all but surprised.
I had pancreatic cancer.
Over my peaceful body, I got to catch a glimpse of my last smile as he took me away.
I was of nobody's
and thus nobody came to see me off.
It was the even sadder when I woke up from this dream.

That's my own poem <:
To describe my dream.
This dream somehow affected me because there actually is a chance that I may get cancer, and since only 3 out of all my dreams hasn't come true, to date, I assume that this dream is my fate :/
I will come to terms with it and live like I'm dying -- to appreciate every second of my remaining life.

Gosh, sound so depressing.

Today I didn't attend school cuz I'm sick.
sidenote: I really think I might have Cystic Fibrosis (go wikipedia it)
I went to the doctor's and he gave me MC for todaty and tomorrow + excuse from PE for 5 days <: Man, I love that dude, he just made me happy for the upcoming 5 days!
The only offside was the amount of medication I received...
...meaning I'm a drugee for the next 5 days!

This is actually a break from my Math homework.

I believe that I'm becoming more of a good girl now that I make it a point to finish my homework in-time or even in advance! <: (which should've been the case in the first place, but whatever!)
I hope Noruen just follows my footsteps.
I worry for that girl because I sense that my CT already hates her that much and I'd hate seeing her leave the college with a lousy testimonial! Sigh, wish she'd just stop being stubborn.

Ok, I'm off to drawing more graphs!!!!!!!!!
PS: Dionne's coming back in 33 days.
<:

With love, Sakinah Tan.

Happy Weekend

2010-04-25T08:13:00.002+08:00

Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday I took less than an hour to finish up my Chemistry Tutorial.
FIRST TIME EVER THAT I AM FINISHING CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK BEFORE HAND.
I'mma see what she's gotta say 'bout it! <:

I have to be on my way to some Chinese website to satisfy my teacher soon -.-
Things I do to keep these cute teachers happy.
(not referring to my chem teacher at all hor ^^)

Yesterday after finishing my chem homework (hehe!), I went out to 'study' with Afiq. Honestly, he knew I wanted to meet him up t study......he didn't bring anything. So I had to bring Fredo for him to play with while I diligently did up my lit notes.
He kept teasing me with his cousin of his -.- (Apparently his younger cousin has some crush on me. Pfft, delusional kids)

And Dionne said she's able to make her way back here on the 30th May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<:

OK, I'mma hit the books now.
Still have to research for new PW topic -.- gosh!
And I still have to do up my personal P.I.
I H A T E T H O U , P R O J E C T W O R K .
xoxo

counting

2010-04-23T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiii, more and more people think I'm lesbian.
Oooooh, watch out....I'm a scary lesbo waiting to prey on girls -.- (wtf? so not me)

It was raining heavily just now (it just stopped)
It was so cooling, that I couldn't help but keep my window ajar slightly so that my feet could enjoy a light drizzle!
Now that the rain's gone....the humid feel sets in, and its just something I hate very much -.-

Have lotsa homework for the short weekend.
I have this sudden flow of motivation to do all my homework and even finish up extra readings!
I have to influence that lazy Afiq, haiya.

People still find it amusing that I'm chinese.

I just cannot stand these girls whom try to act as thought they're the toughest in town and yet, right in my face, they stutter with their reluctant choices of speech. C'mmon, I'm not dumb -.- Out with it, admit that you think you're superior and you just push around those who choose not to fight back. You guys're just unlucky that I am no pushover, and even more; I fight back. No, trying to bully my friends won't get you anywhere either as long as I'm around aite. Backoff, losers.

So sad these immature people still exist at this age.

I'm off to finish my PW GPP -.-
Ahhhhhhhh, stress dao.
PS: JARREN COMPLIMENTED ON MY SINGING. WEEEEEE.
xoxo

2010-04-22T18:15:00.002+08:00

Perhaps it was odd we could talk like human beings after what seems like a lifetime of morose mutualistic views.
Perhaps I was happy we communicated again, even if you did hurt me.
Perhaps I'm just a pathetic piece 'o ____ that I was delighted I got to have a nice conversation with you.
And perhaps.......this means we will never be cuz we make just the perfect acquaintances now.
......and that is all that we would be

Hi, I've been singing love songs in Malay and English.
.....so the emo....LOL.

Today I was told his eyes followed me as I walked away.
Of course it made me feel happy and feel good 'bout myself!
Then again, it could mean anything. (sigh)
BUT Fiq did say he enquired bout me.
Heh.
Then again, it could just be a friendly gesture ^^

I miss Dionne.
I finally admit it.
So woman, come back now.
NOW....PLEASE?

International Friendship Day

2010-04-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

I dreamt Fadhir up this morning.

Hi, mass dance was zuper, i got to see R, L and J all dancing upclose.
Woohoo! <:

K tomorrow heading to school early!
Chao outside people.

2010-04-20T22:44:00.003+08:00

Hi.
Let me tell you what pissed me off today:
_______________________________________________________
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Yes, thankyou. that felt better <: (I'm not so stupid as to put it here. it may be used against me. DUH!) Anyway, all I know is I'mma prove her wrong.
Yeah, I will.
I will smack it in her face one day (with God's will)

Honestly speaking, trying to coach my bro in the Chinese language can make me puke blood.
I praise the language teachers in our schools.
Bravo on your endurance!

Speaking of endurance, I don't like PE >:
I mean, regular exercise is fine. But if I gotta achieve certain targets in a target time....that's just not me yo.
+teacher says my class is a pathetic bunch of sickies.
Today already 4 out of the 6 boys in my class ran away from the hell we faced -.- .....lucky schmucks.
Then some people just managed to come up w valid reasons to give up on the 2.4km run mid-way. (including me. yea! -.-V)

Tomorrow am gonna make my way to school earlier to finish up homework so she cannot make false assumptions of me.
So that means, more sleep tonight.

Best part of my day = Melvin texted me during class.
Been a long time since we last talked, and I just miss that boy.
<: Arimadachi

260th

2010-04-19T21:02:00.002+08:00

Jam is online and once again, I don't know what to say to him.
Oh well.

out of the 10000000 brain cells given to me by the Almighty, 9999999 died in the course of the 2 hours that I was doing my Chemistry tutorial. Its all up to the last one to help me cope with my GP assignment.

Tomorrow still have tests.
Omg? >:

RUNNING.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
Just got to know from Afiq: we're doing intervals of 3 rounds and we have to accomplish them in less than 6 minutes. Crazy!

Calling in sick tomorrow!
hehe
xoxo

Grey jeans made me grey today

2010-04-18T21:59:00.003+08:00

for the fact that now my hips are too bubbly to look nice in my fav. pair of jeans :(
I even searched the 'net for body toning exercises!
and thankfully, I succeed.
I even bookmarked the page .__.

In fact, just came back from Jurong West, (THAT'S WHERE JAM LIVES!!!!!)
....yeah, ate there and i already feel fatter.

and lately people's been starring at me.
I don't if its because I'm weird or smell?!!??!?!
Frankly, in my head I'm thinking: Oh no, Kinah, quick sniff your pit! check if it stinks!
then a second person in my brain would go: ew, that'd double the number of stares! act normal
And usually at that moment, I end up falling or something that embarrasses myself :(
and its so coincidental that everytime this happens, a cute guy just gots to be there-.-

Attention to all hot/cute guys: please clear from Sakinah the moment people stare at her, cuz its a sign she's about to do something stupid. Please save her the uneeded embarrassment, TYVM!

Right now, facebook's lagging alot. (getting on my nerves!!!!)

Ho yeah, I'm addicted to Mafia Wars and Treasure Isle.
Sinple reason being that I recently got from noob ---> pro in them <: ....of course with the fact that they're also kinda fun! I'm gonna cut my hair @ Snip Avenue tomorrow! (insya'allah)
The place looks so nice
++++++their pricing is damn good also!!!!!!!
Bangs and thinner hair, here I come!

Deedee, I know you love me.
So................GIMME THE BELT.!
xoxo

2010-04-17T13:42:00.002+08:00

HI, its been nearly a week.
Its the weekend already --- the only time I can catch up on work.

Today I attended the HSK exam @ River Valley High School.
Gosh, I don't think I'm up for that 'A' I've been meaning to get :/
Oh well. Life sucks sometimes.

Yesterday, I didn't get to attend my dear CHR ODAC's POP >:
Was really upset about it luh.
All because of ___________.

I've been diligently reading my Newsweek and TIME magazines, and I find myself a whole lot more informed. Like totally more relevant to me than reading the daily papers because these mags invite perspective of the World while the papers in Singapore very much based on Singaporean's perspective of the world.
Yes, I cannot deny the fact that Singapore, no matter how we try, have perspectives of our own.

Its only been a week and my new yellow watch already has a stain.

Wang JianHan is psychic, I swear!!!!!!!!

I've not been exercising, and at this rate, I'm not surprised if my oversized jeans would now be too tight for me. *sigh*
+++++I know what to get Noruen for her birthday already.

Dionne's getting me a brown belt from Englanddddd.
Wee, but I still don't miss her <:

2010-04-12T20:33:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiii, i'm back as of yesterday!

Unfortunately enough, I came back in time for school ):

Today the poly people started school term officially.

I'm waiting t hear from Glenys and Jianing <:

For me, the usual stressing.

PW is in session again and I'm stressing more than normal.

I bought a skirt and other trinkets!

So pretty.

I'm getting more girly (Y)

and my watch from runwaybandits has arrived!

I love it ttm!

It may be brandless, but nevertheless, functional and simple.....the way I like it.

I have been drifting from Amierul and abit from Afiq.

Its kinda expected right?

I mean friends never stay close for long anymore.

Instead, I have been spending most of my time with Noruen.

OK stupid move of the day: I applied ulcer gel on my left-most upper lip, and its numb now.

I feel so darn retarded.

It was an accident.

BUT ITS SO UNCOMFORTABLE.

Kthxbai, I'm going to turn in early. Tomorrow = homework morning with Noruen♥

2010-04-09T17:01:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiii,

because you see this picture, it is most likely I'm in Tioman diving already!

....or at least I'm on my way to that happy island.

J-ning: if my funds haven't been transferred by today, I will transfer latest by Monday morning. there were alot of complications.....thats why ): sorry!

PS: NORUEN I'M NOT GONNA GET YA ANYTHING, MINAH :P

Ha, will miss you lovelies while on my trip there!!!!!!!

Kthxbai.

As Mrs Yeo (principal of CHR) says; God Bless!

Once again

2010-04-08T17:42:00.003+08:00

Hihihihiiiiiiii,

I'm leaving tomorrow for my diving weekend trip @ 1930h!

Will buy stuffs for certain people.
One thing's for certain: GUM!
Woohoo.
Will be returning on Sunday night!

For now, I gotta chiong homework (-.-) and chiong packing.
Kthxbaiiiiii!

Hi, singularity

2010-04-06T20:38:00.003+08:00

Stressing over projects, CCA, homework.
Which is actually unecessary. But because of my laptop that has some sorta attraction to my body, I'm constantly distracted from achieving my workload.

I oovoo-ed with Dionne and recorded it!!!!!
(to watch, go to my fb. If you don't have fb, too bad, sucka!)

FORTHEWIN: HIDUNG SAYA LEKIK = DRIPPY NOSE.

Kthxbai!

2010-04-03T10:09:00.003+08:00

Hihihihiiiii,

I'm going out in a bit to a wake. Yeah, Miss PMK's dad's wake >: from what I heard, he passed away on Thursday morning. So happens that that day was April Fools' day. Indeed, most people whom I told 'bout the sad piece of news, refused to belive it wasn't a prank -.-! Wtheck lah, who would be so insensitive as to joke 'bout death for April Fools'!!?!?!

Yes, I fell prey to Jianing's mean joke: Philander's getting married. Total wlao moment ok -.-

Alf hasn't talked to me in over 24 hours, and that's just sad. >:

Today I'm supposed to go to the Anugerah Hitz thing with my cousins. (got the tickets cuz my cousin's a singer now) But then, my bro's not going, so figured I didn't wna go. Have nothing to wear anyways *shrugs*

I'm hungry, and bec I'm meeting Jianing @ 11, I'mma go get myself a Maccers' breakfast, yaw.
PSSSSSSS: DIONNE IS LOONY CUZ SHE LOL-ED AT THE BUS STOP, AND A HOT GUY GAVE HER A LEMONY STARE.

Chao outside, people!

"I'm sorry"

2010-04-02T21:16:00.001+08:00

I screwed up.

Babe, just talk to me again, please?

Dragging my feet

2010-04-01T17:39:00.002+08:00

What's the deal with people in packed MRT trains?
Imagine you're in the centre of the heavily filled MRT train cabin, and you're alighting @ a certain station.
People crowded at the door (who are not alighting) just stay in their places, as if you're too magically ghost through their bodies and get out of the MRT train -.-
and worse, when you say "excuse me" or you shove in between them, they go "TSK!"
Like a really loud tsk.
I mean, c'mmon, I always step out of the train and wait outside the door so peple may get out. Still can go back into the train mah! gosh.

Another annoying thing is people who sit on the isle-seats.
You know how the buses in Singapore have 2-seater seats right? You may choose to sit by the window or by the lane.
Well just so happens most people love sitting on the aisle-seat.
2's not that bad until the person refuses to let you get off your seat to alight the bus.
They were just turn 90 degrees from the front and expect that "wow, a whole wide space for me to pass through" -.-
and this sucks especially when you have a big bag...
...and then your bag hits the person's face while you're passing him/her. and the person says "TSK".
SERIOUSLY, WHAT IS WRONG WITH GETTING OFF YOUR SEAT AND LET THE WINDOW-SEAT PEOPLE GET OFF THE BUS"?!?!!??!?!?!
Unless you have a great big hole in your pants that you plan on hiding, then I think you are obliged to give way by standing up.

well enough.

I handed in my Preliminary Idea as of yesterday.
Woohoo!!!!!!!!!
I feel awesum.

Install Kapersky on Fredo (x)
Hand in P.I. (x)
Study for upcoming tests
Finish reading TIMES magazines
Go shopping

kthxbai!

Stuck @ home

2010-03-30T14:59:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm @ home when I'm supposed to be in school.
Awesum huh?

Well, I'm sick....
....so I got to leave school early.
Woohoo! I can't believe that 2 months ago, I was so eager to start school.

I went to the Polyclinic with dear Noruen. :)

First time I go independant of a parent eh!
(ticks "go to polyclinic alone" off my bucket list)
Heng I survived without looking so darn clueless lah.

If one 'o yous doesn't know what a bucket list is....its a list of things, that you come up with, to do before you "kick the bucket" or in layman terms; die.
Yeah, so 1 less thing on my Bucket List!

It sucks that I'm missing out on lessons, but so rocks that the rest of my class only go home @ 6pm. heheheh >:D
+++++++NO RUNNING FOR ME. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Oh yeh, my babe went for job interview today ^^

Much loves,
Kinah

Where are you?

2010-03-28T14:18:00.003+08:00

Yesterday = Earth Hour Event.
Yes, I was the face painter for the day.
I had 2 pandas printed on my cheeks, and 1 on my hand!

Honestly had fun painting on people :D

PS: The event was awesum!
There was music and such.....
....I had free coke, Macdonalds, Earth Hour shirt.
LOL, FREE DAY.

I asked him to come, but he didn't.
(sadded)

If you guys didn't switch off your lights for 1 hour yesterday....Shame on you!
haha, kthxbai.

Dionneeeee, denial won't get ya anywhere!!!!!
YOUR PHOTO IS STILL DUMB.

Pistanthrophobia

2010-03-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

Would you know the meaning of that word? (if you don't, search it up.)

I haven't been updating much. Apologies to those who read in and see only "I hearts Alf♥"
You know the "♥" thing....I have to go all the way back to my fb page to copy then paste it here?
I think I can say I am awesome for that, no?

The past week:

PW title came out
Got GP test results back: 12/50
Got Chem test results back: 6/7 (highest in class okay!)
Met up with Alf 2 times (♥)
Missed out on blogging
Alot of homework
Lack of sleep

Not much right?

Well during the weekend:-

Saturday

Cut hair
Face-painting @ Esplanade (I'm the painter!!!!!!)

Sunday

Shopping for clothes
Homework

Next weekend, I'm going for diving trip.

Hopefully this time I get to catch ample amount of pictures using my own cam!
YESSSSSSSAH.

Kwellpeopledontexpectapostfrommeasimtoobusywithwork
ifisuddenlydecidedtobealazysapimaystartupdatingonmymundanelife
kthxbai.
♥ (there are alr 4 of this in this post = I ROCK)

DIONNE HAURI DOES NOT HAVE PERFECT TOES.

2010-03-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

I hearts Alf ♥

So excited

2010-03-19T10:59:00.002+08:00

I just came back from camp.
Campfire was awesum.

TOMORROW = DATE. ♥

heeeheee, so excited for tomorrow.
Glens should know whyyyyyyyyyy

TOMORROW = INTERVIEW ALSO. ♥

I think I gained weight, so that cannot be good for my interview.
:(

I'M GNG TO MALAYSIA LATERRRRRR
WEE!
MOVIE MOVIE MOVIE.
Shoppinggggggggg.
Yay.

'till we can walk again

2010-03-17T14:41:00.002+08:00

heyhihello.

I have a _____ near my ______ :( EW.

Yesterday me and Glens had fun laughing like crazy women wile running @ 10pm!
Awesum or what.
Me love that woman.
Alf: we ran from every banglah we saw, no worries. hahahah.

Today she can't run with me :(

I'm looking forward to tonight where I get to hear his voice.
heeeeheeeeeee.
For now: Gonna do work!
(I cried in class just now cuz I got frustrated with Chemistry)

Chao outside, people!

I think I like you, U

2010-03-16T17:33:00.006+08:00

I was trying to look up my nose and success!!!!!

Heyhihello.
I went to school thinking I'd be able to go home @ 1130.
Instead, I went home @ 1600. :'(
how sad right?

I am happy even YT today said that I look slimmer.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Pasal semalam saya bebual dengan Burong Hantu, saya akan slalu pakai bahasa melayu, jadikan saya punyer melayu best.
^^

HAHAH.
Hope he reads this!
I'm so proud of myself.
Yours truly

Falling to your palms

2010-03-15T20:38:00.003+08:00

Heyhihello.

I have been @ home NOT studying.

I told myself to, I really did.

But I just can't because I don't understand a single thing going on!!!!!!!!

I need help with Chemistry.

So I did finish reading the first part of WSS :)

I haven't done anything since.

I took alot of pictures with Fredo's help.

(I was bored, you can't blame me)

Then A came to my rescue, sorta.

As in, at least I had someone to talk to.

We vid convo-ed.

He has a cute smile :)

SOMEONE WAS SUPPOSED TO RUN W ME!!!!! (hint: Gl----e-------knees)

I'll run with Afiq tomorrow instead.

Sigh,

SYFC interview in 2 days! YIKES.

Yours Truly.

With every breath we drew.

2010-03-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

"All I ever learnt was to shoot @ someone"

Heyhihello!
I want my MILO triathlon picturez.
Trust me to forget my camera on the most important of days, huh!

I have been trying to struggle with homework today.
Can't say I have because I always got distracted!
But glad to say I got to finish my Math holiday assignment and read up abit on WSS.
I don't like the story.

I LOST MY NEWSWEEK ALREADY :(

Just now I had an episode -- my granduncle laughed at me for crying.
(HE STILL SEES ME AS A TOMBOY)

Nobody texted me today -- disappointed.

Kthxbai.

Trail of blood

2010-03-13T21:49:00.002+08:00

heyhihello.

Today I completed MILO triathlon, watched Alice in Wonderland, went to IT fair and gained my "sexy" voice. Ate alot of sweets = guilt. Ate Maccers for breakfast = even more guilt. spent alot of $$$ = moremoremoremoremore guilt. Walked around city area in Adidas shorts + New Bal. tee and big bag = UNGLAM TTM.

Hahahhahahha, i really did go to the IT fair in brazilianos, shorts and shirt.
Seriously super what to the maxxxxxxxx.
Of course because it was right after my MILO event luh!
Who in the right mind would do it out of choice?

I've been texting A.

PS: GLENYS LOVES LAUGHING AT MY NONSENSE JOKES. REMEMBER, GLENS! KARMA!

Alice In Wonderland is awesum
Next Stop: Dear John! :D
Next next one: Nightmare in Elm Street (which i wna catch with Dionne Hauri! though not saying I miss her)

I'm sleepy.
Tomorrow = homework day. Great.
And I lost my Newsweek alr -.- sigh

I SOUND LIKE A MAN.

2010-03-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

yes i have the sore throat.
but i don't care because.....
TOMORROW IS THE MILO TRIATHLON!

I love the new bib, the new tee.
+i love my team; Glenys and Farhan.
ME LOVE.

I'm taking part as YOG placard holder, heeee!
IM GONNA BE ON TV!
and R signed up for it too!
(I wna believe he did so because he found out I was in it. hehe, i can dream right?!?!?!)

+no, i don't miss Dionne Hauri (:
WEEEEE

Where lust comes before emotion

2010-03-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

First was Tiger.W, now Jack.N.
Coincidence, much?

I'm skeptic of this largely coincidental.....coincidence (hahah, failed to find another word for it)

Today for P.E. we did Javelin throwing, weee! :D
I got to run at least one round today.
+accomplished 600 rows.
= awesum!

Not so awesum is my dear chinlay still isn't talking to me
:(

I need to finish my Chinese homework, sigh.
I really do hope he starts talking to me.
tomorrow = Milo tryout/homework marathon.

Yours Truly.

when lovers love,

2010-03-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

Heyhihello.

And no, I'm not attached. My title has nothing to do with anything.
....alot of people have been making inferences that ma and Afiq are an item.
Well, we're not, okay?

Get this straight: Don't ever call me pathetic, you %$#@^

Even those people @ a certain chalet, I don't know what's their problem with me teaching Zul. But I don't find it something funny at all.
Them guys really have no sense of humor -.-

Obviously today is not my best of days.
I'm having a sore throat, I haven't worked out since Sunday because I'm sick, and I just feel shitty.
No, its not that time of the month.

Homework piling up, is bad enough.
Irresponsible adults unable to make up their mind really irks the hell outta me.
Then when you're the girl who can't make up your mind if you like me or not, just shut the ___ up.

I realise how I still depend on people for company.
I hate this feeling.
I need to be isolated....maybe.

Yours Truly

Changing times

2010-03-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

HEYHIHELLO.

I have alot of activities lined up for March Holidays.

Make-up lectures, Milo Tryathlon, SYFC, scuba diving, CHR ODAC camp

.....AHHHHH ME LOIKE!!!!!!

I WILL FINALLY REUNITE W JNING.

Oh yesss good news:

I'm slimming down!

I'm catching up on school work!

I'm keeping to my diet!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I love this year.

++++++++i have a good feeling bout operation Swift Radio.

Afiq is a genius!

AFIQ D SIO.

Gbye, neematoads!!!!

Suffice to say I'm happy

2010-03-06T18:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday ---- Release of 'A' level results.

When I got home, my dad gave me a sorta smuggish look and said: read this text!
then he handed his handphone over to me.
There was my explanation for his slightly-constipated-looking-happy face.
Alot of parents have sent him texts commending him on the good work he has done as a Math Tutor.
Almost all his students got A for their H2 Math :O

See, my dad is good.

I have alot of homework but I'm sorta taking a break from it all.
Chemistry is really -.- because I cannot grasp all the things the lecturer is saying.
The fact is: the teachers assume those who're taking H2 Chem were pure Chem students.
But I was a combined Chem student.
Sigh.

Left with PW, Chem, Math and Lit.
Looks like I'm leaving today's workout for tomorrow :(

+tomorrow = celebration for my grand-daddy's b'day.
(his birthday is Monday btw)
=cake and other fattening foods.
:(

Though, I should look on the brightside since a few people have said I look slimmer.
But just now I consumed curry chicken (mom's cooking)
.....I feel so guilty.
I have to run.

Now everytime I get hungry, I chew on sticks of carrot.
My dad laughs at me occassionally and says: "Whatup doc?"
tskkkkk.

Gah, I'd better stop this Fredo-hogging habit.
Gotta get to work.
I feel so much healthier
I feel so much happier
I feel so much more confident.
This is all cuz of regular exercise.
I love exercise.

i think i'm falling for you

2010-03-03T20:36:00.002+08:00

HEYHIHELLO.

TODAY WAS THE FIRST DAY OF ECO CLUB AND IT WAS AWESUM!
Cuz we got to go to the organic farm.
I consumed alot of raw leaves today.
Some were really yummy.

+R looked @ me today, and I got to look at him.
Heeeeeee!!!!!

AND I JUST SKYPED WITH DEEDEE.
Though it lasted only.....13 minutes+, it was an effort made by her.
TOMORROW WILL BE A LONGER SKYPE SESSION BECAUSE SHE WILL BE AT HOME!

Oh yes, uh.
I'm going over to Zul's to teach.
Wlao, sian eh -.- One whole day tired, haven't do homework, then must go people's house to tutor.
SIANZ TTM.

I'm falling back on schoolwork already.
Fredo is a bad influence on me :(
Whenever I have to study, Fredo must be out of sight and mind!!!

With all that said, I'm going to skip rope for at leas 1000 times...
shower....
do homework..
SLEEP.
:D

prospects.

2010-03-02T21:20:00.003+08:00

heyhihello.

The picture you see = me after morning workout with dear Noruen.

can you tell i was tired?! :)

I'm done with homework, and I ate before 8.

+I'm gna sleep soon.

.....all this because of my classmates' advices on how to lose 2.5kg in 15 days!

SERIOUSLY, I GAINED WEIGHT.

WHATTHECRAP.

I got to look @ R for 25 minutes today = happy me.

I don't like Chem

I don't like GP

I don't like Bio.

Ok, me get to my much needed sleep already!

Bye.

FROLIC IN MY BED OF LOVE/

2010-03-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

heyhihello.

I'm up once again for last minute homework.
and again, Dionne hasn't skyped as promise (sad, very)
I'm also up for printing materials.

Iam spiritually tired.
Afiq is too.
:(

Tomorrow = gym with Noruen.
= die for not finishing bio.

I liked R, really I did for some unknown reason.
But yah, don't think I have a chance at'im.
+right now, studies're of more weightage.

I wanted to blog about somethin before...
....oh well, i've forgotten.
and Fredo's batt pack runs out pretty fast.
NEED FOR NEW BATT PACK.
Poor Fredo :(

I LOVE MUSEUMS.

2010-02-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

heyhihello!!!!!!!

I loved today.

Got to go to the National Museum of Singapore for the first time + PERCY JACKSON.

Percy Jackson has sexaye eyes.

(thumbs up)

I SAW MUMMIFIED (CROCS, CAT, FALCON)

YIKES RIGHT?!

did you know crocodiles were raised in the holy lake for the prupose of mummification because it was sacred to some Water God? super i-didnt-know-it-until-today moment.

In other words, attending the exhibition made me feel smarter.

+it was free, so it was super enjoyable!

+went with Afiq and JD, all the more enjoyable.

Tuesday = skype with Dionne

CAN'T WAIT.

(L)

I smiled the whole day thanks to you

2010-02-27T13:00:00.003+08:00

You made my day just by taking the initiative to talk to me.
HA!
It was on Wednesday by the way, and the incident still makes me smile.
But of course who else? It was R that came and talk to me luh.
I SHOULD'VE LENGTHEN THE CONVERSATION.
But I had to hide my already-growing-red cheeks!
I mean if he knew I like him, what if he didn't like me riiiiiight?!

So this morning, I, Sakinah Rafiq Tan Hui Ling, ran @ the stadium.
Weeeeeeee!
Of course with the lovely Noruen who is like the next best thing to Dionne.
Cuz she puts up with my antics and best part, our friendship's already blossoming at an awesome pace considering the facvt we've only been friends for about....3 weeks? :)

Now I'm busy setting up some work for Zul to do on MOnday when I go over to give him tuition.
Sigh, English just isn't an easy subject to teach when you don't have the materials!
I shouldn't have thrown my english assessment books after 'O's
I am feeling the regret.

After this, I still have to do homework.
But it is all for a good cause; MUMMY-MANIA @ NATIONAL MUSEUM TOMORROW!!!!
Hurrah!

I still want to catch Dear John in the movies.
:(
I CAN SOMEHOW TELL TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE GREAT.

im feeling the "fit"

2010-02-26T20:32:00.002+08:00

HEYHIHELLO.

I am happy because I feel fit.
Yesterday for P.E., i was te fastest running during sprints. (fastest 'mong the girls)
I cannot say the same for 100m-relay (i almost fell flat on my face. thank God for my tip-toe talent)

And on top of the runnings, after school, I went to swim.
WOW.

I felt the burn in my legs today, and my calves felt so firm.
me loike.
but i hate the fact tht i have to go through alot of pain to just sit down.
:(

TOMORROW = MORE RUNNING WITH DEAR NORUEN!
:D

Ok, im off to my chem homework and whatever not.
this Sunday = outing to the National Museum with Afiq + JD!!!!!! to see mummies.
PS: DEEDEE, YOU'RE MAKING ME MADDDDD. :(

much lovez, people!

2010-02-24T19:39:00.002+08:00

You drink and smoke, what're you trying to prove?

Heyhihello.
Tomorrow = fav. day! because I only have Chem and Bio and PE.
I havent been running/swimming yet and i left with only 20 days to lose 2kg.
Anybody got ideas?

I'm officially in eco club!

Oh yes, Mr Sas is actually Nur Saspurie. (no wonder the change in addressing of name)
+I am absolutley in love with poetry.
Romance and sadness would be the usual theme.
♥ ttm!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna head to my work + am gna make a fb group for my class!!!!!!
WEEEEE.

Not quite there

2010-02-23T18:45:00.003+08:00

Hey, so something serious has been on my mind of late.
The important friends would have known what it is.....by now.
Jianing, I still have yet to tell you.....but dno if you wna hear my sad thought.

Dionne told me she would get her wifi installed by today. (excited)
I need to talk to her because....I don't know. I just think she's the best person to talk to 'bout my problem.

+I hate it when friends tell me "oh, its ok Sakinah. I went through that..."
pause, alright.
Why the heck would you want to use your past saddening experience to console me?
C'mmon dude, I'm not in it to listen to your sop story.
I just want someone to be there to hear me cry and assure me that I'm still sane.
I certainly am not in need of a game of "my-life's-sadder-than-yours".

Milo TRYathlon is drawing near. (happy for a sec)
Meeting Glenys and Farhan (my team mates) soon! :)
I also bought new sports bras. (happy again)
One dark purple (even more happy) and one light blue.
Hahah, why am I excited over these bras in particular?
Its the first ever time I bought them and chose them out on my own.
:-D

I'm hungry....but I feel as though he hunger is dissipating (?)

I gots me alot of homework and I feel like I wanna read and do so many things instead of homework. Though, I love the fact I have something to look forward to doing.

I miss you, F.
.....then again, I feel as though I don't. Why do you torture me so?

I've learnt you haven't learned one bit, loser.

2010-02-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

Hello, its the kid who's back from Math tuition!
yay?

It feels like how it did in December; when he just broke up with me.
The feelings are rushing in again.
But why now?
(sigh)
With all this happening, I decided I want to consult my school counsellor.
Hopefully she'll sympathize with me, instead of going all you-shouldn't-have-had-a-BGR on me.

So today I went to SYFC right.
I met my senior who's there. he's from 09S22 :D
He came to greet me. Sweet right?

So I have to lose 2kg before my interview dfate which is in less than a month = jogging everyday.
This time, I must really keep to my word.
I'm overweight by 1.6kg. Sucks right!?
HAHA, but I believe I can lose that and more :)

Gonna call up Zul's momma tomorrow to ask permission from her to coach him in certain subjects.
+maybe lan with brobro :)
+read up my bio/finish my homework.
+do up my math tuition stuff.
I love the weekends!

I learnt: love is never hard, if it is....it isn't love.

Not caring anymore.

2010-02-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

Heyhihello.

Road run today wuz tha bomb. Louise and Noruen were my running buddies.
Our strategy to hold out for the whole run was astonishingly useful.
Strategy = After running past the cheerleaders, walk. Every change of scenery....RUN/WALK.
hahahahah.
Like that, we weren't the last lot. WOOHOO.

Next thing: MILO TRYATHLON.

Oh yes, J is my eyecandy too.
He looked over to me a couple'o times already (heeeeheee)
Though, let me get this straight: I'm not in it to find a 'replacement'.
I just like admiring cute guys from afar.
Reason being, I'm a shy doofus who blushes madly at the thought of liking the guy -.-
I am seriously noobshyte.

Anyhoo!
I think I'm starting to love running.
Oh no, wtheck am I saying?!
(but seriously, I feel attached to the feel of running)

I'm quitting hockey! The trainings are just too ridiculous for a sport I don't even know if I like.
Monday = 1830-2030
Wednesday = 1345-1630
Friday = 1630-1830
O.M.G. right?

= me joining eco club! (cuz its once-a-week)

Ohya, tomorrow I'll be on my way to Seletar alone :(
To go for SYFC interview, gosh.
I sure do hope I get in!!!!!

Today was also my first Cheena lesson.
I am the only girl in my banded chinese class.
Obviously I'm in the last class (cuz I got C6 for 'O's)
+there's only 7 people in my class -.-
My teacher made a sick joke that she needed 2 class reps; a boy and girl.
Being the only girl, need I say much!?

So now Sakinah = S07 Class Manager (AKA Monitor) + Cheena assistant Class Manager.
-.-

I LOVE MONDAYS.
(L)

Baby, come back.

2010-02-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

Gonna go to bed, actually.
But....just had to do a little update.

Today after school I bought new FBTs with Afiq.

Afiq's my awesomexzts bestfriend okay.
You can have real HTHT (heart-to-heart talk) with him and not feel weird.
I thank God he's here for me *smile_

After buying FBTs with him, went over his house to finish up homework.
Homework's torture because you have to struggle.

Why is it that we have to struggle?

Lecturers talk really fast in lectures.
They scheme through almost an entire topic in an hour or two.
After which you're to attend tutorials where teachers usually are not too good in teaching....
....then you're left on your own.

I didn't ask the teacher anything because I was afraid she would answer in the way I didn't want her to. Pfft, Chemistry and Biology whole of today is torturous!
It was a miracle how I managed to go past my Chem. homework!

Tomorrow afternoon = PJC Road Run 2010
> 3.2 km for girls
> 4.2 km for guys
I will die.
++++++much lucks to the guys esp. Afiq! HAHAH, the dude dreads running....just like me!
HA.

I miss F, for no reason.
I just do.
Toodeloo!

You make me blush

2010-02-17T21:11:00.002+08:00

I carried a hockey stick all the way from Sengkang to Bukit Batok and I look so pro
= Hockey prac was great!
Though, I gotta stay true because I want to get into SYFC more.

R is my eyecandy for obvious reasons!!!!!!
++++he is in the Boy's Hockey :-D

I was one of the few who chose to take public transport home (from Sengkang Rec. Centre, where prac took place) and I rode the train with him and such :-D
I AM A HAPPY GIRL
For the first in a very long time.
Though, F still runs through my mind :(

I still can't bear to throw the love letters or to delete the messages.
I'm a whimp.

My math teacher = old dude who mumbles to himself but he's kinda okay in teaching.
My lit teacher = moodswings/hockey teacher IC
My GP teacher = really nice dude who's new to the school.

Tomorrow I'll be having lectures, AHHHHHH!

I love running now.
OhmyG, right? hahah.
+ tomorrow for PE = 3.2km run.
Seriously wtheck.
But with perseverance, I will succeed!!!!!!

Ok, I'm off to rest my overworked thighs (due to squats during training!)
LOVE!

Its not a time to break down,

2010-02-16T20:27:00.004+08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOME.
Because I got sibling time with my brother and friend time with my bestf, and met new friends.
.....I also got to know how much of a sucker I am at bowling.
Seriously!

Just look at the scoreboard :(
'S' of course are my scores luh!

ANYWAY! LAN-ING WAS FUN.
I'm so tempted to go back there every fortnight for a session of L4D2.
I decided not to get the game for my comp 'cuz its a game thts fun played with friends and its the kind of game if you play too many times, you'd get tired of. :)

Classes officially start tomorrow.

I alr colour coded my timetable.
Look so pretty.
But then, I'm feeling lazy already, and I realized compared to other classes, I have longer breaks ;) S07 ROCKS!

K, I'm off to pack my bag/help my baby bro with his last-minute work and then sleep!

PS: Thankyou, Jeremy & Syazwan for being the people who would catch my fall.
♥ you guys to the max,

What makes a good looking girl?

2010-02-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

I guess the main visible characteristics would be their soft hair that never go beserk or their eyes that never go weird when they laugh. Then again it could be their normalised cheekbones and moderately chubbisized cheeks. It could also be their amazingly small thighs that allow them to fit into the ridiculously attractive jeans/shorts.

In other words, I, Sakinah Rafiq Tan Hui Ling, doesn't have the caliber to be one.

That's just so sad to admit :(
I know people say you're beautiful in your own way and beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
---those people are just giving themselves pats on their backs for their ugliness.
Everybody knows how shallowness wins over anything else, most of the time the very least.

Talking 'bout my ex-boyfriend, the first love I ever had, its saddening to look back on what could've been the reason for him not wanting to continue any further. The sad part wasn't that there was a reason to break up with me its the number of reasons that brings the spirit down.

Oh yes, collection for this year = $162

I tried listening on Darren Hayes' music ever since I read about it on J'ning's blog, and I think I like his voice too -.- For some reason. There's something "mesmerising" 'bout his voice. Ha!

Tomorrow @ 11am, I'll be out with Afiq and friends to go lan gaming and bowling :-D
Ha, I'm so glad we're gonna spend time and hopefully have fun together!
Especially before my official lessons begin :X
Honestly, I tried sitting down to read the notes (to get a headstart's understanding) and I failed.
IT IS REALLY HARD!!!!!
Beginning to regret :(

I'm thinking of dropping in on CHR ODAC.
Heard aout the corruption going on, and am so tempted to do damage control ;)
HAHA.

K, getting sleep so I don't get balloon-eyed during the outing tomorrow!
much love from Kinah

2010-02-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

1^st day of CNY is over and this year I didn't go to Granduncle Mike's housey = less angpow.
Doesn't matter.
Had fun @ my granny's crib!

IM GONNA SKYPE WITH DEEDEE SOON.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

+I look dark in my Orientation picts.
I love S07 + Ernest + Ashari + Tricia + Suxiang.
(L)

Child Prodigy.

2010-02-14T12:15:00.001+08:00

This kid is really amazing stuff.

V'day + CNY

2010-02-14T11:52:00.007+08:00

I don't like the fact you didn't text me to tell me happy 18th month.

WELL!
V'day's here. Love is in the air.
(come to think of it, love's always in th air for people around me, except me so, whattheheck)
My only Valentine is all the way in England.
:(

Every Feb comes new romantic movies right?
Well this year, I wna watch:

Today's visiting day.
This year I'm just gonna wear a red polo and jeans.
Simple.
Nobody to impress anyway, its the same old lot.

Yesterday's Reunion Dindin was fine.
We had catered food from an apparently famous Asian Cook; Devagi.
As the name suggests, we had Indian cooked food.
Best part about the night I should say was when my relatives commented on how I looked slimmer :)
Ha, ultimate mood booster.

Oh yeh, I forgot to say, the other day....
The Brit guy from my school was giving free hugs!
So I guess you should know what I did ;)
HAAAAA.

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

CNYE

2010-02-13T12:51:00.004+08:00

Bye.

The long weekend's here. As in Saturday + Sunday + Monday + Tuesday.
Its very long indeed, yo.
Usually on long holidays as such, I have plans with Dee.
But now its different, nothing to do :(

ANYBODY WANTS TO GO OUT WITH ME ON TUESDAY?

Afiq said he may go blading with me and JD.
The key word is may.
I hate that word.
Its a "sit on the fence" thing. Who the heck wants to sit on the fence?!
It'll poke your arse in the wrong way and you'd get hurt -.-
The very least he's trying to make time.

I miss Pradeep, Wukai, Sarvesh. Edwin and Ivan.
I miss Jeremy too.
The dude's in the same school as me, but then he joined canoeing which eats up 6 days of the week!!!!!!!!
I'd rather he took rugby :(

I'm in hockey now (yay?)
I don't quite know what to expect cuz my first training'll be on Wednesday, eek!

I shifted my SYFC appointment to this coming Saturday.
Today I woke up pretty darn late.
I did have about 5 hours of sleep yesterday in the evening, but then in the night I still had the "swollen eye" feeling which means I'm still sleepy (?) so I continued sleeping @ 2am.

My MG is having their gathering at Marina Barrage now.
I wish I could be there with them :(
But today's CNYE = Reunion Dinner at my uncle's
I seruiously love his condominum.
I wanna stay there, then I'll have a reason to stay fit (the condo's right at the foot of Bukit Timah Hill)

I'm still sick and I promised myself I would start training for the upcoming Road Run.
I decided I'll not be a party pooper and sit it out just because I feel lazy.
I'm gonna be more outgoing this year.
:)

BYRON BYRON ALL THE WAY, WOOOH.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hi.

The apathy has passed.

2010-02-13T00:13:00.005+08:00

Heyhihello, in case some of you all don't know what's apathy;

ap⋅a⋅thy
–noun,
1. absence or suppressiplural -thies.on of passion,
emotion, or excitement.
2. lack of interest in or concern for things
that others find moving or exciting.
ref: dictionary.com

Obvious/Needless to say I'm back from camp!
It was on the whole, cool.
Except for the fact that I lost my housekeys and I was stranded outside my house all sticky and smelly for approximately an hour.

Then when I finally got into my house and bathed and went online....
...i had the wonderfulestestest (if the word exists) surprise:-

DEEDEE WAS ONLINE

But the twit was online-ing on her new Blackberry, so no skype yet.
Defeating the purpose of me getting Fredo!

I learned that I give people vibes that I'm a lesbian (wow).
My school's quite packed with lezzies.
I found out I can be quite the dancer too!

I've gotten my Mathematics and Chemistry notez already!!!!!!!!!
= school starting soon.

I'm saving up money for L4D2.
IT WILL BE AWESOME.
Currently I only have Sims 3 in Fredo.
I want to get Diner Dash too :(

+I didn't realise I had a slight eating disorder.
I eat excessively when I'm sad or when I'm bothered by something.
I don't feel hungry, but I have to suppress this unknown feeling with food and its eating up my wallet.
Dear Afiq wants to help me remove this bad habit :)
So sweet right?

I still haven't got the guts to throw it yet, but I will one way or the other.
♥♥♥♥♥♥

BABYLON, ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!

2010-02-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

Turns out I'm not in Keller (the House I wanted to be in just because the name sounds cool), but in BYRON.
Byron sounds cool too!!!!!!!!
Yellow colour is smexy ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

ANYWAY
will be away to Camp Pionero Imperio 'till tomorrow 9pm :(
WILL BE TOTAL SHAGGED,
But *ahem* some girl named Jianing has to go camps every week since school started.
So......3 cheers for her :D

I won't get to touch Fredo 'till Friday.
(once I reach home tomorrow, surely crash onto the bed immediately)
+I haven't even packed for the campppppp.
I'm procrastinating and hesitating!!!!!!!

In my class, I'm known as MINAH for some sick reason (thanks huh, Yi Teng -.-)

Oh yes,

JARREN AND JEREMY: I HAVEN'T EATEN ANY FAST FOOD SINCE LAST FRIDAY (1422h)
SO I STILL HAVE CHANCE OF GETTING 20 BUCKS IN MY POCKETTTTTT

I ♥ Yi Teng, Jonathan, Sham, Asrul, Hui Xian, Jia Qian, Noreen, Santhia, Shu Qi, Andrea, Arif and Khairul much.
CLAZZMATEZ FOR 2 YEARS, SURE TO LOOK OUT FOR EACH OTHER
(L)

Brave through this all

2010-02-07T01:41:00.002+08:00

I have told myself to jot down every single thought into a simple flip notebook (that i just bought, burnign another hole in my wallet) so I have something to blog about every now and then. I just found out I have many anonymous and idiosyncratic readers who've been avidly reading my site with the least bit of info 'bout me then assuming things.
(I know it IS assumed such a thing would stir from an e-diary)

Well, here's me saying stuff 'bout the real me.

I get upset by the smallest of things and may sometimes be mistaken as being angry. That itself upsets me ):<lonely street. I enjoy squishing bugs. I have a fetish for squeezing bodily fluids out of tiny openings and later squeal at how disgustingit is when really I feel its so awesome. I prefer guys' company to gals' for the simple fact that its simpler with them. I dislike people for awhile, then I get over this immature feeling. I act eccentric because I enjoy seeing people laugh (the real world is saddistic because it only finds joy in people's deformity whether real or faked), yet I dislike open discriminations of my unexisting "retardedness". I'm an open contradiction. The only perception in which I can't seem to accept are my bestfriends' because.....I think they only want to appease me. While I feel the acquaintances are more truthful and crude which really proves useful for me. I call myself unattractive because I really feel I am, not because I crave your disagreement. I feast on witty arguments for the fact that I love arguing when necessary. I say alot of things but don't get things done because it brings me back to the fact that I'm a big contradict.

If you can bring yourself to read that huge chunk, there are a few interesting things that answer my bestfriends' queries on my odd behaviour (smiles)

I call my laptop Fredo, and Fredo is officially 9 days old!
(blows candles)
I'm getting a new batt. pack cuz I realized I overcharged the batt. and it runs out at an awful fast pace! Poor Fredo, I'm sorry.
(OKAY THIS IS WEIRD. CHANGE SUBJECT!)

Math Chem Bio + H1 Lit.
I pray that I don't slack even one bit this year and the next!
I'm not in the same class as any of my friends, and its a good thing cuz I won't get distracted :-)
+I will meet new people and learn to be more independant than I already am.

I will run regularly from now on.
(I WILL, I WILL, I WILL.)
I hope hockey takes me in to help me for motivation!!!!!!!
I'm going for the SYFC interview this coming Saturday early in the morning.

I just have to face the facts that reptiles shed their skin at different times, and maybe people are just the same. I know I have shed my share of skin (and more to shedding to come) but some people are either slow shedders or plain non-repts. I will not keep myself in the spiral of misery, as my father has advised. I shall not pester people to accept my apologies or to justify my reactions, because then they would feel like they're important to me which they obviously are not.

In this new school I will learn a new level of responsibility with the added obstacle of it being a "neighbourhood" school.

The Matriculation Group Leaders (MGLs) were quite helpful by giving us insight of the school. Next up would be the Orientation Group Leaders (OGLs) who are to take care of my new Civics Class (thats what they call classes in JC). I cannot wait for Monday!!!!!!

And tomorrow (or today) I will be going for a haircut.
I know I'm gonna get layering done because of my impeccably thick forest of hair (on my head, you sickos!) but not too sure of my fringe :(

DIONNE.
TEXT.
ME.
ITS.
GETTING.
SICKENING.
WAITING.
AND.
.
WAITING.

CCA dilemma

2010-02-06T15:27:00.002+08:00

Hi, peoplez!
Its the weekend, and I can't wait for it to end.

I was supposed to start J1 tuition today but some people couldn't make it, so its been cancelled, poo. I've heard that other schools have started their lessons and such. Well know what? PJC isn't even done with orientation yet, and I find it so dang awesome :-)

All except for the fact I hate Dinosaur.
He made me run so many time for more than 5 hours. I'VE NEVER RUN THAT MUCH BEFORE AND CONTINUOUSLY AT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I quit the CCA. (you'd never think I'd quit it, Jianing)

I'm deciding between Singapore Flying Club and the PJC Hockey team.
It sounds sporty and fun.
I'm thinking of trying something new, and both sound so.....full of opportunities.

I've weighed the pros and cons:

Singapore Flying Club
Pros:-
I get to have private flying license (which is cool)
I fit all of the pre-requisites
Its gives me a tentative career option

Cons:-
I don't know much 'bout it yet.

PJC Hockey Team
Pros:-
I learn a new sport
I lose weight
I gain closer bonds with friends
I feel accomplished

Cons:-
there may be a chance I'm not accepted in.
I'm not sure of the training dates.

And Frog is in the same school as me.
I can't believe frog's still so......-.-
Seriously, move on and stop being lame.
Tyvm!
(L)

I hate seeing you happy

2010-02-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

I wish I didn't feel this way anymore; having to check back on your facebook to see if you've moved on, or to constantly think to text you a "hello" to see if you care anymore.

Dionne texted me already.
Hallelujaah she reached safely, but its damned that she doesn't have good internet connection there!

Tomorrow would be the MG outing for school (yay!)
ODAC trials after school at that! :D
ME EXCITED.

Today I went for Drama trials, and sad to say I didn't give it my all :O
Yeh, but then again, I don't really plan on staying on anyways.

I'M SLEEPY
MY THROAT IS STILL SORE.
i'M HAVING SLIGHT FLU.
I'M HAVING THE CASE OF DOWNIES CUZ I SUDDENLY AM THINKING OF HIM.
I NEED TO SPEAK TO DIONNE.
NOW.

WHERE ARE YOU DEEEEEEE??????
(L)

2010-01-31T18:32:00.000+08:00

PROOF THAT AKID IS A MEANIE.

On frail wings.

2010-01-30T11:59:00.003+08:00

"and me" = Charlie Mcdonnell. (AKA my husband in nappyland!)
HIS FRIENDS'RE KINDA CUTE TOO :B

I've been having this liking for Brit guys of late.
IN MY SCHOOL THERE'S THIS REALLY HOT BRIT. GUY.
YIKEEEEEES :-D
Happy ttm.

Oh yes, I love school absolutely.
Already 2 days into their Orientation Programme and I don't feel like getting out!
Their uniform is awesome too!

I am so happy these past few days :-)
Seeing it as how I got a new Notebook, and a new awesome school, HOW CAN I NOT BE SATISFIED EH?!
Best part: the school food is not yucky like in secondary school :B
I love attending lectures and class capacity is smaller = ♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!!
I really don't know what those people who went to poly are thinking of....missing out on fun.

Bestestest part: my new bestf is my childhood friend, Afiq Daniel.
Cuz we're in the same school and I sorta stick up for him :)

DIONNE HASN'T CALLED ME/COME ON SKYPE. ME IS ANGRY.
:@

LET MY TONGUE ROLL.

2010-01-27T12:09:00.005+08:00

Well I'm officially a Pioneer JC-ian. (or whatever they call themselves)
Well gonna appeal for another school (reluctantly).
I say alot of "well"s and I'm not well myself.

Just now while brushing my teeth with my new 360 toothbrush (with cheek and tongue cleaner), I was cleaning my tongue and I think I brushed to hard, I almost puked.

MAIN POINT: WHEN CLEANING YOUR TONGUE, DON'T PRESS TOO HARD.

Tomorrow I have to report to the school by 7.30am. Lucky for me its really near my house (:
Rebekah, Amierul, Jeremy and Pradeep are the ones going to school with me.
Not too sure 'bout the others?
Wow, if I were to stay in Pioneer, and stay in the same class as Amierul and Pradeep, it would make a total of 6 years as classmates. Z.O.M.G. (!!!!!!!!!!)

I wanted to call up a particular angmoh, but she cancelled her line already :(
SHE'S LEAVING EARLY IN THE MORNING TOMORROW.
AND MY COUSIN'S LEAVING TONIGHT!
THAT REMINDS ME. I HAVE TO CALL HIM.

(call time: less than a minute -.-)

THE POOT JUST WOKE UP. AND HE TELLS ME HE'S GOING WITH HIS WORKFRIEND.
:(

I'd better get a good rest so I can wake up by 4.30am tomorrow incase Dee calls me!!!!!!
I HAVE TO LIKE PUT IT ON REAL LOUDDDDDD.
Cuz I don't want to be missing what seems to be the last call.

My blisters on either of my little toes just hardened.
Ready for peelage!
(L)

Confused, Contradicting, Reconsidering

2010-01-26T11:20:00.002+08:00

Hi, my computer's just been rebooted.
= all my precious photos gone!!!!! :'(

I'm stuck doing my dad's assignment for me.
Can you believe it? I have to write a 300-word essay with the title "tomato".
MAAAAAAN!!!!!
Due tomorrow, even cruddier.

+I've been having rough times lately.
I'm just finding many ways to divert my attention by going for OAC and asking friends out.
I'm sorry to you guys for being sucha pest, always texting you and stuff.
In actual fact, I need help. :(

I just want to hang on to happy days which seem to be gone forever.
(I'm not just talking about the time I had my boyf)
Friends are too busy for me.

Dionne's flying off this Thursday :'(
My cousin's flying off tomorrow.
Tomorrow's the day I get my posting results.
Its also the day I'm going to CJC for appeal.

I still haven't gotten my laptop.
It feels as though I won't be able to get it.

To you: "me and him ain't the same. I am definitely different because at least I try to make a difference"

help me escape this misery I'm feeling

ECP outing.

2010-01-21T01:33:00.003+08:00

Sup, homiez .
Had a fun day with Dee.
Went to ECP (learn your b.acronyms) and then to watch a movie.
It was Awesuuuuuum. (hahah, Dee you know how I say it)

Watched "its complicated", yah.
The show was kind of okay.
I didn't like it that the dude at the end didn't...
nevermind, you watch it then you find out for yourself.
Well in the midst of watching it, I was eluded with my own memories of F.
Yah, hurtful, very.

Anyway, trained home.
During the trip back, we sat on the floor like a couple of goofs because we were bummed that we didn't have any seats, only railings -.-
So yah.

Only took some pictures and yah, all uploaded on fb.
(L)!

PS: much thanks to Taufiq (AKA Fiqah) for being sucha wonderful dude to talk to me on the phone about my problem with M.
PPS: Zul, you know you can always count on me.